Monday 18 June 2012

Room Service (M/m)

Being slavish to statistics on this blog I have been concentrating on the F/m variety of stories in recent weeks. Hence the posting of  a new one in my Connie Wilmer/Andy Styles series. (The Past is Always Present). A small coda in that has got me working on a new one. It is called 'The Boston Landlady' and fleshes out Master Styles disciplinary experiences in America. It will be posted here shortly but, before it is, I thought it was about time we had another M/m story. Some folks like being whacked by men, and in this one the young man gets a little more. Sex can occasionally raise it's head, even on this blog. An old story posted to the MMSA site some time ago and reprised here for entertainment. For those who like M/m. Alfred Roy

Room Service.

Garry Barton stood by the hotel bar and downed a second, welcome, glass of red wine. He was sweating profusely. The bar was full with the noise and bodies of a variety of business folks relaxing from their endeavours. Each individual conversation was no doubt important to the parties involved but as the multitude of sounds intermingled, Garry Barton was only conscious of his own heavy breathing and his churning stomach. He finished off the second glass of wine and made his way to one of the few empty tables. The many sharp suited men, and women, faded into a distant and rowdy sea of expectant humanity. Their evening was just beginning. Numerous, separate, conferences were over and all were eager for the hopes and expectations of their various evenings in a strange hotel in an equally strange town. Some would have a quiet dinner with colleagues, a few would dine alone, and a number would abandon themselves to the delights of a town far from home. And one or two would indulge themselves in some special and secret excitement. Indulge their particular taste in the safety of an anonymous town far removed from their normal social circle.


Garry Barton was not like any of those. He had no desire to dine with colleagues. He had no desire to visit a strip club or a night club. And he had no desire to find himself a black girl which, for some reason, seemed the main preoccupation of a couple of the older married men on his team. He had every intention of dining alone, retiring early, and brushing up on the requirements of the second day of the conference. That was his intention when he left home that morning. That was still his intention when he booked into the hotel and made his way to the customary course registration and coffee and biscuits. Even the seductive sounds of colleagues outlining their evening plans over afternoon tea did not sway him. This two day course was important. He needed a fresh mind for the second day. And it was still his intention when he picked up his room key after his first day and made his way to the lift. A quick refreshing shower and change into casual clothes before a light, solitary, dinner. He had no desire to socialise. He was so intent on his simple plans he barely noticed the man who stepped into the lift with him. Until, between the second and third floors, the man uttered his name. And hearing the man’s familiar voice, Garry Barton froze in expectation and a strange excitement surged over him. The man issued an invitation and, as the lift doors opened on the fourth floor, quickly departed. By the time the lift arrived at the fifth floor Garry Barton’s face was on fire and his breath was shallow and quick. By the time he arrived at his hotel room door he knew that his carefully laid evening plans were about to go awry.


A hotel waitress approached him and asked him if he was dining. Garry Barton said he was but he was waiting for a colleague. He felt his face blush as he said it and, with an uncontrollable turning stomach, accepted the offer of a further glass of wine. His brain told him that additional alcoholic indulgence was unwise but his ravaged nerves welcomed the promise of calming influence. The waitress smiled, almost seeming to understand his unspoken dilemma, and departed for the bar. Garry Barton watched her disappear beyond the forest of compressed and raucous bodies and reflected on his own personal turmoil. To anyone who glanced in his direction he was a fresh faced, fair haired, twenty-something, relaxing from the excesses of the day. The casual grey slacks and smart cerise top indicated a young man of taste and style. Clearly a conference executive destined for the top. If any discerning onlooker had concentrated more deeply they may have noted that the face was more twenty than something and that the hairless cheeks had an early indication of over imbibing. And, looking more carefully, they may also have noticed the nervous wringing and twisting of the hands. But nobody did notice, all were immersed in their own adventures, and Garry Barton was left alone to dwell on the significance of the man in the lift.


He concentrated and thought very carefully on what the man had actually said. What was it? What had he said as the lift made its way up to the fourth floor? ‘Garry. Fancy seeing you here. Let me buy you a drink and dinner.’ And, as he left, ‘Always hoped to see you again.’ And then the lift door had opened and he was gone. Never even said his name. But he didn’t need to. Garry knew who he was. Twice their paths had crossed and by the end of their second meeting an unspoken understanding was growing between them. So much so that the man was rarely out of his mind. And now he was seeing him for the third time. And they were staying in the same hotel. Different conferences, but the same hotel. And, unexpectedly, in the lift they had bumped into each other again. And the man had said ‘Always hoped to see you again.’ and invited him for a drink in the bar. And Garry Barton had felt an inexplicable flush of illicit excitement and a simultaneous desperate yearning for fulfilling of unspoken needs. The man was about forty five and had that air of inflexible authority that always stirred and attracted. Garry could not say why, but peremptory figures always induced a sensual passivity in his being. Meeting him for the first time, on a management training course two months before, Garry had felt a strange attraction. And a recent meeting between his company and their bankers had caused unexpected inner confusions on discovering this man on the other side of the table. When they broke for afternoon tea they had renewed their old, training course, acquaintance. When the meeting concluded and papers were gathered, Garry knew from various asides, that he desperately desired to meet in more propitious circumstances. And by the time he got home that evening he was convinced that he desired nothing more than for this man to give him his companionship. He did not know why. He only knew he desired it. And the thought constantly occupied his mind. And tonight, in this hotel, he had seen the man again. In the lift. And he had said ‘Always hoped to see you again.’ And Garry Barton had blushed uncontrollably. He was still doing so when the waitress brought him his third, unwise, glass of red wine.


Colin Simpson wiped the excess of foam from his cheeks and, discarding the hotel towel, picked up his black jumper and pulled it over his bulky form. He turned sideways and studied himself in the mirror. The waist was definitely extending and the hints of a double chin suggested a life of considerable indulgence. But if the suntanned arms were thicker than in earlier years they still registered more muscle than fat. And most did not seem to mind. Those fixed on father figures, men of authority, cared little for the signs of advancing years. If anything such signs were a distinct advantage. Certainly if the young man he had, unexpectedly, met in the lift was anything to go by. A nice boy. Garry. Flirted outrageously, even if he was unaware of it. Desperate for attention. Colin Simpson was well aware of that. He had an acute antenna for the type. Young men attracted to male figures of authority. And Garry, Garry Barton, that was his name, was definitely in that category. He suspected as much when he met him on that training course. And last month, at that bankers meeting, the boy was mesmerised by him. Colin Simpson took his large suitcase out of his wardrobe and checked the contents. He didn’t need to. He knew what was there. He never left home without careful preparation. And tonight he had the feeling that such preparation may not be wasted. Providing he played his cards correctly. He closed the case and, smiling at himself in the mirror, prepared to leave the room. Downstairs a young man was waiting for a pleasant evening drink and a civilised meal. And if Colin Simpson was not mistaken, and he rarely was, the coffee and liqueurs could have an interesting coda. He put the suitcase back in the wardrobe and left the room.


Garry Barton took a large sip of his third glass of wine in less than half an hour. His nerves were still ravaged and his insides were heady with expectation. And to make matters worse his personal sexuality was exhibiting outward signs of uncontrollability. He carefully placed his left arm over his growing tumescence and gripped the glass in his right hand. What on earth was the matter with him? The man, if it was him, clearly excited and disturbed him. He had done so on that management training course when, on the second day, they had met at the bar after Garry had played tennis with a colleague. What was it he had said before downing a quick whisky and departing? ‘Always knew you had a nice face Garry. Nice to see you have an equally attractive bottom.’ And he had blushed crimson and felt a surge of excitement. The man had not said anything else on that course until they were leaving on the third day. But the casual comment had made them both aware of each other. Garry was a relaxed individual and enjoyed the company of his peers, but whenever the man came close he felt all his energy drain from him. And on the final day, as they all said their goodbyes, the man had come up to him and shook his hand. And as he did so the look in his eyes held out an unspoken invitation. But Garry did not rise to it. And he hadn’t last week when at a meeting with his company’s bankers he found this same man sitting opposite him. Concentration had proved difficult and when, during the lunch break, the man asked him if he had played any more tennis lately, Garry desperately tried to maintain his composure. It wasn’t what was said. It was the private, quiet, way with which the weighted words were imparted. ‘Have you played any more tennis, boy? In those shorts.’ And as he said it the man’s eyes undressed him. Garry had blushed and with a weak smile left the room. He had not returned until all at the meeting were sitting down to lunch.


Colin Simpson lit another cigarette and embarked on his second walk around the hotel grounds. He had seen the boy sitting in the corner of the bar and, judging by the flushed face and the agitated manner, he was clearly unnerved by something. Colin Simpson knew what it was, he had seen the signs many times before. And this boy displayed them in spades. Ever since their first meeting he had suspected a boy who would not be averse to a bit of old fashioned disciplinary play. He may be wrong but the signs were unmistakeable. The passivity exuded whenever Colin Simpson came near him indicated both a homosexual nature and a desire to be dominated. When they shook hands at the end of that management course he would have stripped in the car park if Colin Simpson had wished it. He was sure of that. But what he didn’t know was how much the boy was aware of his nature. He didn’t look more than twenty and at that age confusion reigned in the mind. So Colin Simpson would need to play his cards carefully, and subtly, if he was to succeed in his aims. But he didn’t mind. He had all night in which to seduce a compliant boy into special pleasures. He stubbed out his cigarette and, with a contented smile, made his way to the bar.


The first part of their meeting conducted itself along familiar civilised lines. Colin Simpson set the agenda and a nervous Garry Barton gradually relaxed. They caught up on the various aspects of their respective jobs and filled in details of the different conferences they were attending. Only when Colin Simpson meaningfully said that their paths seemed destined to keep crossing did Garry briefly lose his growing composure. But the rest of the preliminary meeting and the first two courses of the evening meal passed off without any personal or unnerving comments. Garry Barton wisely stayed with sparkling water, sliced with lemon, and with a clearer head filled his companion with a few private details. They had just finished the main course when a small but important detail allowed Colin Simpson to steer the conversation onto his chosen path. He had carefully requested a corner table where they could not be overheard and as an attractive young waiter cleared the table, his equally attractive young companion issued the invitation Colin had been waiting for. He watched the waiter depart and turning his attention back to Garry, poured himself a second glass of wine.


‘You say you left school early. Why was that?’

‘My father died and my mother could not afford the fees.’

‘So you had to get a job?’

‘Yes.’

‘Did you mind?’

‘Not really. He had been ill for some time and the money was running out. But he was well connected. The company that took me on is very good.’

‘So you support your mother?’

‘Yes.’

‘Just the two of you?’

‘And three dogs. My mother is besotted with dogs.’

Colin Simpson smiled and topped up Garry’s glass of sparkling water. He leaned towards his companion and lowered his voice.

‘Was it a good school?’

‘Just a minor one.’

‘But expensive?’

‘Yes.They all are.’

‘Was it strict.?’

‘Not particularly.’

‘No cold showers or early morning runs?’

‘No.’

‘Detentions?’

‘Occasionally.’

‘Lines?’

‘No.’

‘Anything else?’

‘No.’

Colin Simpson smiled and brushed his fingers over Garry’s arm.

‘No other punishments? No slaps on the bottom?

Garry blushed and anxiously looked around the room before answering. The nearest diners were, thankfully, immersed in their own conversations. No one had heard. In fact he wasn’t sure that he had heard right. He lowered his head and whispered his response.

‘What?’

‘I think you heard Garry. Did you ever get your bottom whacked?’

‘No. It wasn’t allowed.’

‘Really?’

‘No’

‘What a pity. No boy should ever grow up without the benefit of at least one caning.’


Garry Barton stared at the man sitting opposite him. His voice had lowered and had developed a disconcerting thick and serious urgency. His eyes were gleaming with an undefined desire and Garry remembered again the look when they shook hands in the car park after the management training conference. It affected him then and it affected him now. This was why they were having dinner. This was why he had sat, trembling, in the hotel bar waiting to meet him again. And this was why he both desired and welcomed the increasing tensions of their conversation. An inexplicable surge of excitement shot through his young body and when he spoke the words were thick and hoarse.


‘Why do you ask?’

‘Just wondered Garry. You have a bottom that many would find difficult to resist.’

‘They didn’t allow caning at school.’

‘And at home?’

‘No.’

‘Nothing?’

‘No. My parents were very modern.’

‘Pity.’

‘Why?’

‘I told you. You have a very desirable backside. And I should know. Before I went into banking I was a maths teacher at a private school.’

Colin Simpson paused and took a sip of his wine.

‘A very old-fashioned private school.’

‘Old fashioned?’

‘I think you know what I mean. It was a long time ago. I left when I realised my taste for disciplining boys could get me into trouble.’

‘You enjoyed it?’

‘I still do. But these days I confine myself to willing participants.’

‘People who liked being caned?’

‘Not so much like, as have a need for it. I meet them all the time.’

He paused and gently placed his hand across the fingers of his companion. Garry Barton felt both uncomfortable and thrilled at this first show of intimate contact. Colin Simpson was so close he must have sensed the shallowness of his breath. Whether he did or not his next comment was guaranteed to increase the intensity of their developing conversation.

‘I was hoping I might have met one in you.’

Garry Barton’s churning stomach vied with a pleasurable sensation in his loins. The single word that escaped his lips was barely audible.

‘Me?’

‘Someone slowly coming to terms with his strange sexuality, looking for adventure.’

‘I don’t understand.’

Colin Simpson leaned even closer to Garry Barton and looked intently at the reddening face of his young companion.

‘Oh, I think you do Garry. I think you do. I must go for a pee. When that dishy waiter comes back order me a black coffee and cognac. No sweet, I am on a diet.’

And with that final instruction Colin Simpson rose and left the dining room, leaving Garry to reflect on where the evening was heading.


And Garry Barton did understand what had been meant. He understood only too well. That was why they were having dinner. The veiled illicit promises of this man had mesmerised him ever since their first meeting. Garry was well aware that his sexuality was drawn towards men, especially mature men with an authoritative nature. He had never done anything about it but he knew the attraction was there. He remembered back to a teenage crush on a French teacher at his school and, before that, an unspoken love for his father’s elder brother when he was little more than twelve. Both had engendered strange desires in Garry triggered by the one, isolated occasion, when that uncle had playfully turned him over and slapped his short covered bottom. They had been renovating his uncle’s garden fence and Garry had accidentally knocked over the tin of paint. Within an instant he was tipped over the adult knee and, laughing with glee, his uncle had delivered half a dozen slaps to his backside.  Garry had loved the attention and, in spite of the sting, the warm and pleasing glow. They both giggled and his uncle had held out a light threat of more in the future. But it never happened, even though Garry often desired a repeat. But he never forgot and occasionally fantasised. And his fantasises frequently involved an oblivious French teacher who reminded him so much of his uncle. And then, at eighteen, he was given a book which had a very descriptive passage on a boy being caned. His reaction to it cemented his growing sexuality. There could be no denial. The fantasies grew and, at twenty and a half he met Colin Simpson at the management training course, and a new character was added to the descriptive scenes of his secret mind. The waiter arrived at the table and, as he ordered, Garry Barton wondered if he had the slightest idea of the thoughts of a red faced and trembling customer on the cusp of a new experience.


Colin Simpson finished a pleasant stream at the urinal and adjusted his attire. He crossed to the elegant wash basin and stared at his reflection in the mirror. This evening was going even better than he had dared to hope. The boy was desperate for it Everything about his manner suggested that. It would be a first time, there was no doubt about that, but he desired the physicality of many pent up fantasies. Colin Simpson had met many like him. And he was a master at introducing them to the reality of discipline. Real discipline. Colin Simpson did not play at the game. He caned for real. It was just a case of getting the recipient into the right frame of mind and Garry Barton was already more than half way there. What had he said?  ‘I don’t understand.’ Oh, but he did. His face had blushed even more and his hands had trembled but the eyes had gleamed with watery excitement. And over coffee and liqueurs in the bar Colin Simpson quietly outlined his proposition to a companion bursting with fearful anticipation. Garry listened in silence, nodding thoughtfully at some of the details and it was a couple of minutes before he spoke. When he did his voice was surprisingly calm and measured.


‘You give me your room key and I go there and wait for you?’

‘Or you hand the key into reception and say you found it in the bar. If the door is not on the latch I will know that you have given it in and gone to bed.’

‘But if I don’t?’

‘If you don’t, then you do as instructed and wait.’

Colin Simpson sipped his brandy liqueur and smiled. He was enjoying this. The thought of seeing this young man stripped in readiness for a caning was a heady aphrodisiac. He had no wish to rush. Garry Barton was still deep in thought and it was some moments before he responded.

‘I strip to my pants and vest and wait?’

‘Yes.’

‘With the door on the latch?’

‘Yes.’

‘What if someone else comes in?’

Colin Simpson gave his companion a steady stare.

‘That is the risk you will have to take. Tell them it is your room.’

Garry Barton wrung his hands and put out the cigarette which Colin had given him. His throat was dry from its unfamiliar sensations.

‘But….’

‘But what Garry?’

Garry Barton lowered his voice. Most of their discussions had been conducted in little more than a whisper and if Colin Simpson had not been sitting so close to him he would not have heard. But it did not matter, he knew what the boy was going to say.

‘But you said I had to be bent over, touching my toes, with my back to the door.’

‘I know.’

The young man’s face was a picture of exquisite consternation as he weighed up a number of possible scenarios.

‘How long will you be?’

‘That is for me to decide Garry and for you to contemplate. But I assure you that I will come and there is a cane in my suitcase. And you Garry will not be going to bed until it has found your delectable arse at least a dozen times. Think about it.’

And saying this Colin Simpson pushed his room key across the table to his companion. Garry studied it for a few moments and then, gingerly, picked it up and rose.

‘And Garry.’

‘Yes?’

‘I do not play games. Remember that. If you take up my offer you will get a caning that will hurt. Be under no illusions.’

‘Yes.’

‘But if you are half the boy I think you are, you will thank me when it is over. Maybe not tonight but sometime.’

‘Yes.’

‘But the choice is yours. If I don’t see you later I’ll join you for breakfast.’

‘Yes.’

‘Now do yourself a favour. Go and get ready to be caned.’

Garry Barton made no response. He smiled weakly at the man who had played havoc with his emotions and disappeared to the area of the hotel’s reception desk and lifts. Colin Simpson watched him depart and fervently hoped that he was not seeing the delightful rear for the last time that night. The boy had a small but prominent backside that, hidden by the grey slacks, hinted at any number of special pleasures. And Colin Simpson was more than equal to them all. He finished his liqueur and, not unnaturally, decided on a second welcome walk around the hotel grounds.


Garry put the key into the lock of room 423 and, slowly turning it, tentatively opened the door. For some inexplicable reason he half expected the room to be occupied. The lights were on and the curtains were drawn and evidence of occupancy contrasted with the silence. But other than Garry himself the room was empty. He closed the door and stood silently for a moment, gathering his thoughts. It may be a hotel room but it was not his room and a feeling of intrusion swept over him. Was this how burglars felt when they broke into someone’s house? A temporary violation of privacy. But the feeling soon passed and Garry Barton remembered why he was there. And there was never any doubt, at least for the last long and heady hour, that he would come to this room. The strange promise excited him, surged through his whole body, and he knew that the opportunity of the experience that Colin Simpson offered could not be denied. He had briefly toyed with the idea of handing in the key and, walking to the lift, he had hesitated slightly before pressing the button for the fourth floor. But, deep down, he knew that this was his destiny and to deny it would fill him with lasting regret. He was scared, frighteningly so, but he was also riddled with excitement. He took a deep breath and started to remove his shoes and socks.


It had been over two years since Colin Simpson had been in the position he now found himself in. His banking business regularly took him away from home but opportunities for serious disciplinary play rarely arose. The required ingredients to fuel his special passions were singularly elusive. They needed a young and personable compliant stranger to come to full fruition and, in spite of the impression he gave, these were not easy to find. But when they did cross his path, the clandestine sessions reaped rich rewards. That is why Colin Simpson was patient and accepted with stoicism any number of aborted hotel dinners. And the chase was always exciting. While the promise held, the evenings were stimulating. And every now and then everything fell into exquisite place. Two years ago, in a similar hotel, he had built up an interesting relationship with a young waiter. And on the third night of his stay that same young waiter had gone to his room for the same reasons, and the same purpose, as Garry Barton. And in the privacy of that anonymous room Colin Simpson had engaged him in sensual and disciplinary fire. Colin Simpson smiled as he remembered the details of those stimulating hours. And he smiled again at the thought that upstairs, in room 423, another young and personable man was about to embark on a similar journey. He knew he was there. No key had been handed in to reception.


Garry Barton did a tentative practice of touching his toes. He had been in the room about ten minutes and his discarded grey slacks and cerise sweater were carefully folded on a bedside chair. With his back to the bedroom mirror he leaned forward with his hands on his knees. The small, pale blue, tee-shirt disconcertingly rode up his back and showed his small and firm bottom to great effect. Encased in his tight fitting white underpants, that bottom jutted out in provocative prominence. It made an easy target for a cane. Garry bent further down, touching his toes, and turned his head again to the mirror. What he saw told him that he was in for a painful experience. Colin Simpson would have to be blind to miss his taut and beckoning cheeks. He rose, straightened his back and placed his hands on his covered rear. The virgin cheeks felt so smooth and unsullied. He placed his hands inside his underpants and felt the warm flesh and, turning towards the mirror, studied the conscious bulge that faced him. Hesitating for only a moment, he moved his hands to the front of his pants and lifting them away, released his massive erection. His hands cupped and caressed every inch of his stiffened shaft and his soft round balls. The familiar private parts of his body were begging for release and, as the welcome juices stirred within, he cupped the fingers of his right hand around the iron hard flesh. Gently and slowly he moved his hand up and down the shaft and, turning away from the mirror, added the needed visual image to his private masturbation. His underpants had slipped down his bottom and the top half of his twin cheeks wobbled in anticipation of the impending surge. Garry Barton always masturbated himself in this manner. His spurts of relief could only ever be contemplated whilst viewing his bottom. But this was different. He was not alone, or not for long, and such pleasures would have to wait. He stroked his penis a couple more times and, with a sigh, pushed it back into his pants and pulled them up in both the front and the rear. He turned to the curtained window, his back about six feet from the hotel door, and bent down and touched his toes. He had been in that position for about two minutes, studying an enclosed erection which refused to subside, when he remembered that he had not raised the latch.


Colin Simpson stood by the bending boy. He had been in the room about five minutes and, so far, had not uttered a word. The hotel door was locked and the cane was in his hand. The boy instinctively knew that he should neither speak nor look behind him. His task was to remain bent and staring ahead. If the pattern of the hotel curtains eventually bored he would soon have something else to occupy his mind. Colin Simpson relished the picture and was in no hurry to commence proceedings. In the silence only the heavy breathing of both participants could be heard. The boy shifted slightly and the small space of flesh between the pale top and the white pants gave a gentle ripple. As if prompted into action Colin Simpson brushed a finger along the tiny exposure and casually pushed the flimsy tee-shirt further up the boy’s back. He resisted touching the small white pants. They were coming down, there was never any doubt of that, but Colin Simpson wished to postpone the moment as long as possible. He was content to wait. And having waited, and looked, he spoke.


‘Straighten your legs, Garry. And grasp your ankles. I want your bottom well presented.’

Garry Barton did not speak. There was nothing he could say. He both desired and feared what was to come. This was to be a fulfilment of many fantasies. No words of his would break the spell.

‘I am going to take down your underpants. All the way down to your knees. I am going to bare your bottom in readiness for my cane. And I shall give you twelve strokes.’

Colin Simpson’s voice was thick with anticipation and excitement. The picture presented and the words he uttered combined in exquisite juxtaposition. He was about to cane a boy and it had been a long wait. And that wait was nearly over.

‘I assure that the strokes will hurt but I expect you to take them. If you get up at any point, that stroke will not count. And…’

Colin Simpson paused, unsure for a moment if he should give his final instruction. But when he did, Garry Barton gave a slight gasp. It was the first sound he had uttered since Colin Simpson had entered the room.

‘And if necessary we will stay here all night. I have never started a caning I have not finished.’

And with that final authoritative point Colin Simpson placed his hands on Garry Barton’s small white underpants and very slowly pulled them down to the boy’s knees. The two beautiful bare mounds of enticing boyish flesh which met his eyes enhanced a desire which had been growing all evening. Colin finger touched the straight and smooth legs and thighs and arranged the lowered underpants to pleasing effect. The boy’s legs and thighs trembled and, above them, the two pale cheeks jutted in a provocative display begging for attention. And that attention took the shape of a sharp and rigid cane which tapped itself, impatiently, across the centre of the bared buttocks. And Garry Barton, aware of both the nakedness of his cheeks and the release of his continuing erection, simultaneously sighed and shook in anticipation. He was about to be caned. On his bare bottom. And it had been a long time in coming. He closed his eyes and willed the first stroke of a long desired fire.


The cane lashed across the centre of the bending cheeks and Garry Barton issued the first audible gasp of the evening. Colin Simpson had started well. He had stepped away from the boy, tapped the cane across the centre of his bottom, and then raised it high. In true schoolmasterly fashion he was taking precise and measured aim. And when he lashed the cane down to meet the offered boyish flesh the gasp of pain was unmistakeable. The thwack of the cane produced a stifled roar from the boy’s mouth and, simultaneously, the desired mark of chastisement across his naked behind. The three main elements of discipline combined with intoxicating effect. Accompanied by a shifting of the boy’s feet and the involuntary twitching in his rear, the overall effect was stunning. The surging thrill which engulfed Colin Simpson’s whole being spurred him on to even greater and harder lashings of the cane across Garry Barton’s behind. The boy did not scream but his bending body shuffled further and further forward after each stroke. And by the time the vicious cane had struck his backside a fifth time, he rose and cried that enough was enough. With tears in his eyes he turned to Colin Simpson and, clutching his burning bottom with both hands, said he could take no more. Colin Simpson might have believed him but it would not have made any difference. The small, fleshy and spring orbs of Garry Barton’s delightful naked cheeks were going to get the other seven strokes whether believed or not. But Colin Simpson did not believe him. As Garry Barton rubbed his rear and writhed in obvious pain, his large protruding penis wafted from side to side in proud denial of his pleas. Garry Barton may be in pain but his smarting behind had yet to diminish his desire. Colin Simpson moved closer to the boy and briefly held the still stiffened member. It eloquently told him that this boy both wanted and needed the seven strokes to his backside that were still to come. He did not let go until the boy was back in place and his five line striped bottom was up in the air again. He gently tapped the bending boy on the head, lifted the pale blue tee-shirt away from object of desire, and placed his free hand gently on the two softly burning cheeks. Satisfied that all was as it should be, he raised the cane again and sent it on its way. And for the final seven strokes Garry Barton gripped his ankles, gritted his teeth, and maintained his erection. Each slash of the stinging cane surged through his body and private areas of pain and pleasure linked in heady unison. The last stroke fell and, after a few agonising moments, Garry rose again. He turned to look at his chastiser and, ruefully rubbing his bottom, whispered an inaudible message of gratitude. Colin Simpson said nothing. For him, indeed for both of them, the evening had only just begun.


‘More toast Garry?’

‘Please.’

‘Coffee?’

‘No, thank you. Too much makes me fidgety.’

‘And you need to keep a clear head today, or so you tell me.’

‘Lots to listen to, and lots of notes to make.’

‘And hours of sitting down?’

‘Yes.’

Garry Barton blushed. In spite of everything that had happened the previous night he still had a degree of nervousness. Talking about his sexuality, or alluding to his special tastes, engendered boyish confusion. Especially in public. And Colin Simpson’s comment, issued with a gleaming smile, indicated a breakfast conversation about to take a familiar turn. Garry looked around the dining room before replying. Unlike the previous night there was no dinner chatter to drown out their discussions. Garry fervently hoped that Colin Simpson, reading his thoughts, would be discreet.

‘Don’t worry Garry, no one can hear us. And if they can, it was a harmless comment. Sitting in lecture halls can be a tiresome prospect.’

‘You didn’t mean that Colin.’

‘No, perhaps I didn’t.’

Colin Simpson smiled and, considerately, lowered his voice.

‘I was envisaging that little sore bottom of yours desperate for some relief.’

‘It isn’t sore. Well not much.’

‘And you have no regrets?’

‘No.’

‘Good. Then we should have a repeat session sometime. And next time you can come to my house. Doing what we did in hotel rooms can be a little risky.’

‘The noise?’

‘Not every hotel guest appreciates hearing someone being thrashed. Even someone who took it so quietly as you did.’

‘I thought that was part of the thrill. For you.’

‘In a way it is. But I would enjoy having a go at you without any inhibitions.’

Garry Barton did not consider that his companion had any inhibitions the previous night but refrained from saying so. Time was pressing and his first lecture was due in fifteen minutes. He was unlikely to see Colin Simpson again that day and, before they parted, he had one remaining question.

‘Colin?’

‘Yes.’

‘What would you have done if I had refused to take the full caning?’

‘You didn’t.’

‘I know. But if I had?’

‘I would have made you.’

‘How?’

Colin Simpson smiled, finished his toast, and wiped his mouth with the breakfast serviette.

‘I would have threatened to send a very interesting piece of film to your mother.’

‘What?’

‘Ssh. Do you want everyone to hear you?’

Garry lowered his voice again and leaned across the table.

‘You mean you filmed it?’

‘I didn’t say that. I merely said I would have threatened you with it.’

‘You bugger.’

‘That little comment is going to cost your bottom very dearly the next time we meet.’

‘True though.’

Colin Simpson smiled and remembered the previous night.

‘And for your cheek I shall thrash you twice.’

Shortly after that last exchange, laughing quietly, the boy and the man rose and left the breakfast table. And three tables away another man, quietly reading his morning paper, idly wondered if they were the ones making all those strange noises in room 423.


And the man would have been correct in his assumptions. He may have puzzled over the dull thuds and ensuing groans which permeated his room but he would have been glad at the silence which followed. A silence only occasionally interrupted by an indistinct but audible sigh. He had mused that in the room beyond his bedroom wall those sighs would have a greater intensity. And he was right. For in the room beyond, in room 423, the final act of a special drama was taking place. There was no audience for the actors, no gathering crowds to anticipate and applaud. Just Colin Simpson and Garry Barton bringing to a conclusion a special disciplinary dance. Colin Simpson took the boy who ruefully rubbed his ravaged bottom, and led him to the bed. He bent him over it and gently removed the underpants that had, steadfastly, remained anchored to his knees. It did not take long. Both were more than ready. The man lovingly gripped the boy’s erection and, parting the striped buttocks, eagerly and urgently entered him with his own. He did not rush. Such exquisite moments are worth prolonging. The beautiful sensations of his searching member were enhanced by the visual stimulation of uplifted silky smooth cheeks. And both entwined combatants breathlessly embarked on their sexual journey of personal fruition. He did not release his own flow until the boy was splendidly spent in a sea of juvenile ecstasy. But he did finally end his desperate pleasure and, with a silent and tearful sigh, treasured the ejaculatory moment. The boy he had desired with predatory skill had been both caned and fucked. And both had welcomed it. Colin Simpson studied the ravaged and wonderful bottom of the exhausted Garry Barton.  And as he did so, it is more than probable that the man in the next room had, long since, fallen asleep.




Monday 4 June 2012

The Past is Always Present (F/m) - (Part Two)


I arrived at Connie Wilmer’s a little early. She was cooking a rather special beef casserole, spiced with oranges and brandy, and seemed very proud of it. She took my obligatory bottle of wine and overnight bag, she insisted I stayed the night, and showed me where I was sleeping. I could shower and change and get ready for a relaxing dinner. She asked me to dress in readiness for the afters, around nine thirty following good food and a long and uninhibited chat was how she put it. As, from memory, she liked me in boyish jumper and tight jeans I had come prepared. I had also packed a nice pair of pure white Calvin Kleins with the chessboard band. If possible we were going to recreate my first visit to her splendid house. On that cold February day, many years before, I had come to her house for a private rehearsal of a play. But I had suspected that something else was on the agenda. This time I knew what it was. I was going to get whacked.

‘So what did you actually say?’

‘I told her that if it was true that she spanked her son, even when he was my age, I would quite like her to do it to me.’

‘Just like that? You just came out and asked her?’

‘I think she was expecting it.’

‘And she wasn’t disturbed by it?’

‘No. I reckon she saw it as quite normal. And totally unthreatening. I have a theory that her son liked being spanked and she missed being able to do it anymore.’

‘And then you came along?’

‘Yes.’

The meal was over and we had been discussing many things. The subject gradually moved towards my sexuality and, understandably, my disciplinary experiences in America. It was inevitable that my landlady spanking would come up. I gave Mrs Wilmer a blow by blow account.

‘I think it was all to do with the gravy boat.’

She had been silent for a while and her conclusion was both measured and decisive.

‘Because I broke it?

‘Because she bought a new one. She was reminding you. You had said nothing for two weeks. A woman desperate to spank has to take desperate measures.’

‘Is that what you are doing with me?’

Mrs Wilmer smiled and I saw a slight change in her demeanour. Her eye became sharper and her face took on a more serious look. I sensed a heaviness in her breathing and, simultaneously a slight churning in my stomach. We sat looking at each other for no more than a minute or so and in that minute I felt the familiar stirring in my loins. A stirring which signalled my strange desire. I was ready to be used and she knew it. It had been building all day. On my journey to her house and while I showered and changed. And throughout the evening meal. My recollections were the opening she required. I sensed myself staring at her, not knowing what to say. It did not matter. For the next half an hour it was best if I said nothing.

‘Stand up.’

She said it quietly but with determination. I obeyed her command. I did not resist. I did not want to resist.

‘Face the far wall and put your hands on your head. I won’t be long.’

I went to the centre of her large dining room and did as I was bid. I heard her leave the room and in the following silence became conscious only of my own breathing. I was sweating and trembling at the awareness of my chosen vulnerability. When I raised my arms I felt my light jumper, her favourite blue, also rise and my mind focussed on my clothed body. The nakedness under the jumper, the tight fitting underpants, the close fitting jeans. All designed to please my Mrs Wilmer. I had dressed for her attentions and the bare skin of my waist, between jeans and raised jumper, heightened my growing senses. I had done this for her, turning back the years, and her instructions to me reflected it. Telling me to stand and wait, hands on head, was a stroke of genius. I closed my eyes and allowed the familiar stirrings to continue their insistent course. The hardening intermingled with a desperate twitching in my bottom and the desire for all aspects of release burned into my mind. When she returned I would be ready. Ready for whatever she wished to do.

I felt the hands, the long fingers, on my jeans. I felt the top button being released and the slight easing of my internal pressure. I felt the hands move from behind me and slowly, one by one, undo the four buttons on my fly. I felt the jeans being pulled apart and slowly pushed down my legs. I sensed the coolness of the room on my skin. And all the while I kept my hands firmly on my head and my eyes closed. I sensed her bending down and pulling the jeans down to my ankles and her fingers gently brushing my skin as she rose. Nothing was said and only silence filled the room. And then she touched my waist and both hands, either side of me, slowly rolled up my jumper until it settled under my armpits. I was aware that, other than my underpants, most of my body was now naked. And still my eyes were closed and still nothing was said. And then the hands, gently at first but then firmer, stroked and cupped my covered buttocks. The warmth and softness of her palms produced a heady response and my erection took on a greater urgency. And then the hands move around my cheeks and slipped inside the waistband of my one remaining garment and gradually made the final downward slide. I held my breath. Slowly all my flesh was released, I sensed a proud stiffness never before matched, and the underpants went to where they belonged. Around my feet. I was completely exposed and ready. The urgency of my desire surpassed anything in my experience. And that desire, in the house of the silent and wonderful Mrs Wilmer, was to be unmercifully thrashed. I truly thought I would faint.

‘You have a lovely bottom, Master Styles.’

I said nothing. After taking down my underpants she had stood behind me for what seemed an age, in no hurry to continue the proceedings.

‘A little chubbier than when I last saw it, but still very boyish. Still two nicely rounded cheeks.’

As she said this she lightly tapped each of my cheeks with her palm. If this was a signal for discipline it was a very subtle one.

‘And still beautifully pale and smooth. You were made to be spanked Andy. I thought so the first time I took your pants down, all those years ago.’

Still I said nothing. The tapping of my backside and the descriptive language merely increased the throbbing in my penis. It was so intense I was afraid that it might explode without any assistance from me. Never had I been in such a situation. The woman I had revered for years, the woman who had strapped and caned me to manhood, had me virtually naked and ready for her bidding in her house. All I had constantly searched for in America was here. I wanted whatever she was prepared to give and I wanted it to hurt.

‘I thought so even more when I took them down for my strap or my cane. So well deserved. And how you screamed when my strap landed on your bare backside. I shall never forget. And we will do it again. I promise you that.’

She tapped my bottom again, a little harder than before, and I felt another surge of desperate desire.

‘But now get dressed and do what you have to do in bed and I shall see you in the morning.’

As she said this she left the room and, momentarily stilled, I turned and saw that the room was empty. I reckon I stared at the door for five minutes. As I was. Jeans and underpants around my ankles and jumper under my arms. I must have looked ridiculous. Shocked and angry and confused I eventually pulled myself and my clothes together and went to my room. I do not know if it was her intention but my erection was but a distant memory.

It took me a while to work out what she had done and when I did my admiration for her trebled. Mrs Wilmer, my Connie Wilmer was still the woman I adored. Her dismissal of me had contained a harshness in her voice reminiscent of when I seriously displeased her in the past. After dinner she had allowed me, briefly, to indulge my fantasy but she had no intention of being an equal partner to it. I was still the boy and she was still the boss. With desire gently returning I fell asleep convinced I was going to get thrashed and it would be as the old days. Pure discipline for a boy who had strayed from the mature woman who had kept him in line in the only way he understood. At seven thirty she called me for breakfast. I entered her large and well fitted kitchen, lots of Pogenpohl fittings, and took a seat at the well laden breakfast table. The smell of bacon and sausages filled the air. I was incredibly hungry for some reason and the table was filled with promise. Steaming tea, rich brown and white crusty toast, marmalade and honey and freshly squeezed orange juice in a very elegant jug. And then I saw it. A dark leather strap. Brown and shiny, over a foot long, and wide and thick it rested on Mrs Wilmer’s side of the table. I had seen it before, I had felt it before. It had a sting that was killing, especially when applied to the bare behind. It was there for me. After breakfast. My whacking was imminent. Just as certain as that the sun would rise. Suddenly, my appetite left me.

‘You have displeased me Andy.’

‘Sorry.’

‘Did you really expect me to indulge your fantasy?’

‘You did a bit.’

‘Don’t get clever with me Andy. You are in enough trouble. I wanted to teach you a lesson.’

‘You still could have.’

‘Not like that. I need you to be a little afraid. Like in the past. There was no fear last night. Only boyish desire.’

I thought very carefully before I responded. We had finished breakfast, in spite of myself I enjoyed it, and Mrs Wilmer had turned on her dishwasher. I kept looking at the strap and my stomach churned as she would have wished. It was a hesitant reply but one thick with anticipation.

‘It might be the same again. I am older now.’

‘I can cope with that. I can cope with a boy’s erection. But it is as a boy that I shall strap you, not as a man.’

She picked up the strap for the first time and ran her delicate fingers along its edge.

‘For last night. Twenty four strokes Andy. And I intend them to hurt.’

‘Twenty Four?’

I said it almost as a whisper.

‘It is no less than you deserve. I even considered using my cane, but not this time.’

I sensed the hint of a future promised threat.

‘Now go to your room. I will join you in a few minutes. And Andy.’

‘Yes.’

She gave me a stern look which echoed so many previous and familiar situations. I sensed that surge of electricity that always entered her when, strap or cane in hand, she had prepared herself for my discipline.

‘Yes, Mrs Wilmer.’

‘This will be no Boston landlady spanking. I expect to see real tears.’

The fear, missing the last night, shot through me and mingled with the desire. Mrs Wilmer had achieved her aim.

I knew what she was doing. I may be happy to live in the present; she had to rekindle the past. I stood in the guest room, dressed as the previous evening, and waited. Twenty four strokes she had said. With that brown and shiny thick strap which accompanied our breakfast. Twenty four. Would it be all on my bare backside? Or would I have some protection?  I need you to be a little afraid. Like in the past. Jeans and underpants, at least for some of them. She hadn’t said, that was her way, but I was convinced that some of the strokes would be on my bare behind.  I would be disappointed if they weren’t, however much they hurt. It was part of the ritual. It was what I had sought since achieving manhood. And my Connie Wilmer, Mrs Wilmer, had sown the original seed. So long ago. And she was outside, waiting, strap in hand and I could not wait for her to come. There was no fear last night. Only desire. When she did I had been standing in the room for almost ten minutes. She didn’t say anything, merely approached me and bid me to bend over and put my hands on the end of the bed. I did so and positioned myself in readiness. Straight back and legs apart, holding firm. I was well trained and my clothed bottom was raised to the required angle. I knew from experience that her strap would land on my rear with considerable force and I wanted to absorb the shock. No unseemly teenage cavortings. I was older and wiser now and I wished to please. I felt her run her hands over my curves. Not sensuous, merely assessing the target but I felt the familiar surge all the same. And then the heady sensation of buttons being undone. This was it. This was the moment that defies all explanation. I closed my eyes and held my breath. She undid my jeans and pulled them down to my knees. I trembled in anticipation. I was wearing bright coloured Calvins, pink and green with chequered waistband, almost in defiance. The sensation was heavenly. It is as a boy that I shall strap you, not as a man.’ She lifted my bottom, urging me to stick it out and placed the heavy and shiny strap against my covered cheeks. I closed my eyes again and waited. I was ready, she was ready. These are the fleeting seconds you cannot capture. The raised bottom, the avenging strap, the waiting actors. One bent, one poised to strike. Soon the dance will begin, but before it does let us weep in expectation. After that moment the strap connected to my behind with a vicious stinging slap. I winced in pain. God, how it stung. And that was only one of twenty four. Twenty four strokes Andy. And I intend them to hurt.’ And they did. All twelve. Twelve times that strap found my raised behind and twelve times I gasped in pain. Each stroke contained a burning fire that brought tears to my eyes, tears I wanted, but with a penetrating sting that my bottom had not experienced for many years. I held my position, I had placed myself carefully, but Mrs Wilmer tested my resolve with blessed determination. The rising strokes of her strap seared into my beckoning behind with loving savagery. Each time the shiny leather hit my cheeks I squirmed and gasped at its effect. But my hands never left the bed and my feet never left the floor. I was well trained in this art. And then she stopped, still saying nothing, and slowly ran her fingers over the brightly coloured pants. She must surely feel the warmth that she had generated. And then, as the previous night, she placed her fingers in the waistband of my Calvin Klein underpants. It was only for a second or so, but their slow removal to my lower thighs was a heavenly second nonetheless, I am sure I heard a distant sigh. My naked bottom, exposed in all its painful glory, was now ready for her second attack. I drank in the cool air that kissed my bottom and welcomed the freedom her downward movement had brought to my boyhood. I can cope with a boy’s erection. But it is as a boy that I shall strap you, not as a man.’ I sensed that freedom to my genitals and I sensed the rising. This was what I most desired. To be stripped and exposed. To be bent over and willing. To be waiting for a desperate pain to my naked behind. From a woman I worshipped. She lifted my jumper away from her favoured area and, once again, allowed her hands to explore the burning flesh. But, as before, it was not sensuous. This was a woman assessing the damage she had delivered to a boy she was strapping. And then, unexpected, the strap landed across my naked cheeks with a searing blow which took my breath away. It had an intensity that surpassed all that had gone before. This will be no Boston landlady spanking. I expect to see real tears. One by one the second set of strokes hit into my naked behind with a ferocity I had never envisaged. I gasped even louder and squirmed even more. I held on to the end of the bed and prayed and prayed. Every inch of that leather strap registered on my burning and battered backside. And each thwack seemed harder than the last. I both hated it and devoured it. It hurt so much I mixed pleas with the tears which now freely flowed. Please Mrs Wilmer, I am sorry, so sorry. Please stop. Could I stay in place? Could I absorb such devastating pain? I screamed at the eighth and the ninth, low and vicious, and the tenth, shiny leather connecting with naked fleshy cheeks, must surely have cut my skin. But not until the last stroke, not until the twenty fourth lash had imprinted itself into my backside, naked and willing, did she relent. Twenty four strokes Andy. And I intend them to hurt. I fell on the bed, sobbing and clutching my burning bottom, and if I still had an erection I was not aware of it. Mrs Wilmer had whacked her favourite boy. And I, the boy, would forever remain so. I eventually calmed down and, when I did, I lay still on the bed. Unable and unwilling to move I absorbed the cool air of the room and the presence of my tormentor. Such a lovely bottom, Andy, and so compliant. You were born to be thrashed. And with that she left the room. I never moved for at least ten minutes. I lay for five minutes enjoying the sensations in my behind and then, unforgivably but understandably, I lay for a further five spending my desire.

The coda to this exhilarating reliving of past chastisements was a little frustrating. We were sitting in Mrs Wilmer’s kitchen, she smiling and me with the burning behind, both clearly keen to explore our combined experience. There were many things we needed to say. But she was meeting Paula Michaels, the dreaded carmine lipped lady in the cloched hat, and she turned up unexpected and early. Some problem with her car. Her eyes lit up when she saw me and the next half an hour was spent catching up on the theatrical past and my journalistic present. Every now and then she passed a meaningful glance at Connie Wilmer at something one of us said and I have no doubt that she suspected. And that to Paula Michaels meant only one thing. Connie Wilmer implements and my bare backside. It was the heady subtext of a difficult thirty minutes. They had to leave, and so did I, and yet Mrs Wilmer and I had so much to explore. Paula did the decent thing and left us alone while she went to powder her nose, as it is euphemistically called in polite circles. I breathed a sigh of relief.

‘Sorry about that, Andy. I was meant to meet her at the station.’

‘It doesn’t matter. We can talk more another time.’

‘Yes. But one thing. It was right leaving it until this morning. It made it so much better.’

‘Because I was a naughty boy?’

‘Because you were a boy. My boy. You always will be Andy.’

‘And I deserved it?’

‘You always will, Andy. Boys like you always deserve it.’

And with that she laughed and gave me a light kiss on the cheek. She was right of course. People like me always deserve to have their bottoms thrashed. Especially when it is carried out by our Mrs Wilmers. I was no longer the spotty teenager having his pants taken down by a authoritative and disciplinary female. But I and she could recreate it. We did so that morning with her strap. She was right, the previous evening contained too much manly desire. The breakfast morning was boyish retribution. As in the past. When that strap hit my naked behind I was fifteen again. That is where I wanted to be and the Mrs Wilmer’s, and my distant landlady, know it. Such women are to be treasured. We left shortly afterwards but not before I had arranged to visit her again. I was going back to America and visiting Mrs Wilmer before I left was an opportunity I was not going to turn down. I got a pretty severe caning on that next visit if I remember correctly. Twelve strokes on my jeans and twenty four on my bare behind. Her reasoning was that I had twice changed the date and caused her difficulties. I understood that. The Mrs Wilmer’s of this world, like Boston landladies with broken gravy boats, always need a reason to bare a boy’s behind and give it a vigorous smack. And such boys, in America searching for its recreation, would not have it any other way.

Alfred Roy (c) 2012


























































The Past is Always Present (F/m) - (Part One)

This is the sixth in a series of stories about young Andy Styles and the woman who thrashed him and defined his sexuality. Three have already been posted here (A Private Rehearsal, A Lesson for Miss Jones and Cries From a Distant Cottage). The fourth, Mrs Wilmer's Dramatic Twist, is on the MMSA website but, frankly, it is not one of my best. That  fifth and best, in the opinion of others, requires a small fee due to its length. Posted on Lulu under the title The Boy in Black Trunks. This one moves Andy on to the ripe old age of twenty two and a reunion with the woman who rekindles old thrashing related desires. Posted in two parts due to its length. No Lulu for this one. I like my blogging and folks into whacking have short attention spans. So I am told. Except when in the usual beloved and familiar situations. Alfred Roy

I hadn’t seen Connie Wilmer for nearly five years. For some reason our paths had not crossed since the film we made for the Edinburgh Festival. The Boy in Black Trunks. I always meant to keep in touch, especially as the film was a great success, but university and the later promise of a career in journalism got in the way. I spoke to her on the phone a few times and we exchanged news. She still did a few theatrical projects but her main interest, or so it seemed to me, were social documentaries for a small TV company. She seemed very busy but always found the time to chat to me and to console me, when needed, over my latest failed relationship. The girl in the Edinburgh film had drifted away soon after it finished and I had never seriously engaged with anyone else. And then, after university, I went to the USA for a year as part of my training and my phone calls ceased. I suppose you would call it growing up. But I still sent her a Christmas card and the occasional postcard. Connie Wilmer, Mrs Wilmer as I always called her, may be a part of my past but it was a past I was not quite ready to let go. Not surprising really. I had first met her when I was fifteen, or thereabouts, and she was a local and formidable theatre director of forty something. Before that film in Edinburgh I did four shows for her. All in the space of less than two years. It was a heady time. One that I will never forget. And not just for the theatre, good as it was. Whenever I stepped out of line, and I often did at that age, Mrs Wilmer took great delight in baring my backside and giving me a good thrashing with whatever implement came to hand. I forget many things about my youth but I never forgot that.

And I still don’t.

So it came as a bit of a shock when I bumped into her, at a conference the small magazine I was currently working for was covering. I blushed when I saw her, all the teenage memories coming flooding back. I might look smart in my formal suit and white shirt but when I saw Mrs Wilmer, elegantly dressed as always, I was a boy again. She had just poured herself a coffee prior to the morning session and when she saw me I blushed again.

‘Andy’, her voice expressed genuine warm surprise. ‘What a delight. Why on earth didn’t you tell me you were coming?’

‘I didn’t know until yesterday.’

I looked at the badge pinned to her crisp dark top.

‘And even if I had seen the lists, Blacktrunk Films wouldn’t have meant anything.’

‘Then why are you blushing again, Andy?’

She was right, I was blushing. I was also sweating and did so for the five minutes of our brief conversation. Black trunks did mean something and she knew that I was remembering them, and all the other projects we had been associated with. She told me that after the success of the Edinburgh film she and her associate had set up their own company. They hadn’t done anything major and concentrated mainly on social documentaries. Their last one had won some small awards. Mostly about disaffected youth, or that seem to be the gist. I didn’t learn much else as the first session was due to start and we didn’t have any chance to talk again during the first day. But after the evening meal we did get an opportunity to talk for a while over a night cap. She filled me in on what she had been doing and I brought her up to scratch on my limited career. She admonished me slightly for not keeping in touch more and, looking at her in her casual but immaculate evening wear, I blushed again.  I had been doing so for most of our late get together. Especially when she said I had looked very boyish in my conference suit. A boy trying to be a man she said. But she smiled when she said it. And we talked about the plays we had done together and the Edinburgh film we had made. But we didn’t talk about the strappings and canings she gave me. They were the unspoken script. But we both knew they were there, hanging over the evening like an unwelcome guest. But I thought of them when we parted for the night. I went to my room thinking of only one thing. Oh how I would love Mrs Wilmer, the mature and wonderful Connie Wilmer, to smack my backside again. Just as she had done in the past.

It was not surprising I had such thoughts. The few defining moments of my life so far had been with my trousers down waiting for the attentions of Mrs Wilmer’s strap or cane. Except for one occasion when she spanked me with her hand for purely sensuous reasons, or so I thought, all her administrations to my teenage backside had been scholastic. I was a fifteen going on sixteen indolent who learnt a lesson best when something sharp was connecting with his behind. Mrs Wilmer discovered that early in our theatrical collaborations. I both hated it and desired it. Fearful and tingling anticipation was followed by a serene after glow. And in between I cried and squealed as the dreaded implement of her choice stung my naked cheeks. Her chastisements seared with heavenly fire and, pants down, I would not have changed anything. At fifteen I did not truly understand such things but I never resented the pain or the humiliation. Baring my bottom for the woman I revered above all others was an act of essential truth. No matter how much it hurt I would always welcome it. And never more than when she delivered the first twenty or so strokes of her formidable strap and then, gently and carefully, undid my jeans and stripped them and my underpants down my thighs. The throbbing pain and my nakedness would combine in a desperate will for her discipline which I could not understand. I shed many tears as she gave her all to my small and vulnerable bottom. But I never resisted, or I think I didn’t. At twenty two, in America, I had often tried to recreate it but none were Mrs Wilmer and virtually none would do. My past was destined, tantalisingly, to remain there. Until it unexpectedly turned up in my hotel. I slept the sleep of a fifteen year old.

I didn’t see Connie Wilmer at breakfast. I gathered later that she was meeting a friend, the one who collaborated on many of the projects we had done together. When she told me that, I blushed again. Her friend, Paula Michaels, was well aware of Mrs Wilmer’s special methods with teenage actors. We were having dinner together after a long and difficult day at the conference. Mrs Wilmer had only attended the afternoon session and the evening meal was our first chance to chat. The conference had finished and some of the delegates had left. The hotel restaurant had a much more relaxed and open feel. The previous evening we had retired to the bar for our reminiscences. On this second night we remained in the restaurant and filled in details of our respective lives. It was over coffee that Mrs Wilmer mentioned Paula Michaels. It was over coffee that I blushed again.

‘You remember Paula?’

I raised my eyes in some mock grimace but Mrs Wilmer was not really expecting a reply. You did not forget the rich and eccentric Paula’s of this world. A passion for exclusive tea shops and expensive clothes and a willing backer of any project that took Mrs Wilmer’s fancy. Her modest writing talent was honed by Mrs Wilmer’s directorial flair and Edinburgh had brought both some success. Always immaculately dressed I conjured up my abiding picture of her. Cloche hat on head and designer bags surrounding her, tucking her heavy carmine lips into yet another cake. Yes I remembered Paula Michaels.

‘She was very interested in my meeting you here.’

Connie Wilmer paused and smiled.

‘She wanted to know if I was going to spank you.’

I have said that meeting Mrs Wilmer and talking to her had induced any number of blushes to my cheeks. None matched the ones that surged into me now. My chest tightened, my face reddened, and my breathing became difficult. All sensations combined with a surge in my loins I could not explain. The amplifying of that one word was a heady trigger. I reached for my coffee as I considered what to say. When the words came out it was as if someone else was speaking them.

‘Doesn’t she think I am too old for that?’

‘She might, but I doubt it. Paula always took a vicarious interest in my methods of dealing with you. It clearly still fascinates her and she hasn’t changed. She raised the topic a number of times today.’

I drank my coffee, using the moment as an excuse to gather my thoughts. What I said next might be very important.

‘But don’t you think I am too old?’

‘No. On the contrary I think you are still the right age.’

‘I’m twenty two. A bit old to be spanked.’

‘You look about seventeen, Master Styles. Besides, nice bottoms rarely age. My husband still has a very boyish one. And he is well past fifty.’

She smiled, mischievously, and as she said this a strange and fleeting thought entered my mind.

‘Do you spank him?’

‘Good lord, no. I only whacked you. And your theatrical friends. And invariably for good reason.’

‘But you enjoyed it?’

Mrs Wilmer poured herself a second coffee from the elegant flask and considered the question. Of course she had enjoyed it, enjoyed the strapping of the teenage backsides. Young bottoms are so beautiful. I remember her telling me that more than once. But she had disciplined for a reason and, in her heart, she knew it would not work any other way. So she had to tread carefully. I could see that.

‘It was necessary.’

‘But not now.’

I breathed very heavily. I desperately wanted her to say that it was. That it was about time I got a good thrashing. From her. To recreate those distant days as a young teenager whacked on his bare bottom by a middle aged woman he revered. If we each made the right response it would happen. If not we would go our separate ways, ships passing in the night, both filled with regret. I waited silently, and her response did not disappoint. She leaned closely to me. No one in the restaurant could hear the conversation but the closeness added an extra frisson.

‘I don’t see why not, Andy. I am sure there must have been many things you did in America that deserved a strapping. Shall we say Friday night? At my place?’

My mind froze. It was going to happen. Just as I hoped. Another thought, practicality vied with desire, and she answered it as it arose.

‘My husband is away on business in Germany.’

I considered my response. Many times in my year in America I had tried to rekindle the special situations I had experienced with Mrs Wilmer. My sexual urge, generally straight, was pretty strong but it walked in tandem with a deeper and more complex need. However much I copulated, and there were many young and willing females, I had an urge for something else. It never left me, however much I climaxed. So I searched it out. Mature women willing to whack young behinds. It rarely worked because none were Connie Wilmer. The history wasn’t there. But now it was. I could recreate my fifteen year old self with the only woman who could take me there. I was not going to turn it down.

‘Shall we say seven o’clock?’

‘I haven’t said yes.’

‘Oh, come on Andy. It has been written over your face ever since we met yesterday. You needn’t feel ashamed. It is a perfectly normal need.’

‘Is it?’

‘Yes. For both of us. But especially you.’

Mrs Wilmer said this last bit very quietly and, for the first time since we had met again, I saw a slight blush in her cheeks. She wanted to give what I so desperately wanted to receive. So a date was made and I went to bed with her final comments ringing in my ears. She still kept both the strap and the cane she had used on me in the past. They were ready for use and there would be no holding back. When they landed on my backside they would do so in serious earnest. From Mrs Wilmer I would not expect any less.

The next three days dragged very slowly and my concentration levels were at their lowest. I could not get the promised scenario out of my head. I had similar feelings in America when I had made appointments with mature ladies who specialised in dishing out corporal punishment. But it never truly worked for me. I enjoyed the beatings, the sensation of a cane or strap landing on my bare backside was clearly part of my psyche, but none had that special something. A couple of experiences were clearly seen as a prelude to sexual activity, and that was a separate compartment. One was too motherly and kind and another was obviously only doing it for the money. I left all with a heavy heart. I didn’t know it at the time but I was searching for a substitute for Mrs Wilmer. Perhaps one day I would find her. A woman, stern but fair, who would treat me like a schoolboy and give me what I deserved and needed. There was one who came close and, surprisingly, I discovered her by accident. She was my landlady in Boston. I was working in one of our offices there for a few weeks and she had an arrangement with the personnel department. We got on very well, so well that she used to tease my boyish looks and my propensity for blushing. I often helped her with evening chores, she cooked super meals, and when I accidently broke a special gravy dish she threatened me with a spanking. Then she laughed and left the kitchen. I remember standing frozen by her sink and retelling in my mind every word she said. Every single one. My boy used to get spanked for doing that, even when he was your age. That is what she said and I repeated the words to myself, over and over again. My boy used to get spanked for doing that. I suddenly saw her in a different light. Even when he was your age. Now I knew why we got on so well. In looks and maturity she wasn’t that different from Connie Wilmer. A softer personality but in her own way, landlady rather than theatre director, still a female figure of authority. My boy got spanked, even at your age. Was that true? Was it more than a joke? Was it said with any hidden motive or meaning? Did she know? The questions bombarded my mind as I stood still and sweating by her sink. I hadn’t moved an inch when she came back and it was the insistent sounds and smells of coffee making which brought me back. It took me about ten minutes to vow that I would broach the subject. Her boy got spanked. It took me three hours to ask if what she said was true. Even at my age. It took me another two weeks to ask her if she would do the same to me.

She said yes. It didn’t surprise her. She knew I had a strong submissive nature, so she said. And she was well aware that some folks liked that sort of treatment. She only wondered why it had taken so long for me to ask her. I think it was the wine after a long summer evening and another of her wonderful dinners. And a brand new gravy boat, purchased that morning. I offered to pay for it and she declined but the talk moved tantalising in a direction I wanted it to go. My boy used to get spanked for doing that, even when he was your age. She understood and she was prepared to do it if it gave me some pleasure. But she also assured me it would also involve pain. She wasn’t going to do it unless it was for real, or as real as one could make it. But only her hand. She couldn’t envisage a scenario involving straps or canes or paddles. She could only do it as a mother, the way she walloped her son. My boy got spanked, even at your age. But she assured me her hand and his bare behind were an unequal match. He always squirmed and squealed. And I would do the same.

It was the use of the word ‘bare’ that both prepared and stimulated me for what was to follow. When she left the dining room I knew when she came back I was going to have my pants taken down. Not take my pants down in readiness for sex, but taken down for a more bizarre and heady pleasure. The one means you are a man, the other makes you fifteen again. I think she left me to give me time to reconsider. If I was still standing there when she came back then it would be a signal to start the proceedings. In the wait I felt a surge in my loins that I prayed would not be obvious. This was not about sex this was about me having my bottom spanked, please don’t get the wrong idea. I need not have worried. She came back and placed a high backed chair in the centre of the room and, sitting down, told me to come and stand in front of her. When I did so she spoke quietly, telling me I was about to get what I both needed and wanted, and at the same time started to undo the belt on my jeans. She slowly undid the belt and then the buttons on my jeans and, pulling them down to my knees, audibly confirmed that she only ever spanked on the bare behind. My boy got spanked, even at your age. As if to emphasise the point she placed her chubby fingers in the chessboard waistband of my light blue Calvin Kleins and pushed them down as far as they would go. She could not fail to see my semi erection and I could not fail to see her hands. It was the first time they had truly registered. They did so now because they would soon be connecting with my bottom. Working hands, quite large and thick, and ideal for the task she was to undertake. Dressed only in a light summer shirt which covered nothing I closed my eyes and waited. Never in America had I felt so vulnerable. She said she could see that I was ready and gave a small laugh. It was gentle and understanding and did not detract and when she took my left arm and directed me over her right knee I knew I would not be disappointed. The bending over that knee, the looking at her floor, the sensation as she lifted my shirt, and the surge I felt as she placed her hand across my naked bottom cheeks created a heady faintness in me. And when she gently stroked both my cheeks and said I had a nice bottom, just like her son’s and made for spanking, I felt an eagerness that would surely burst. And then she hit me. Slowly at first but with a firmness that never relented. First one cheek and then the other and then three or four to either side. The intensity gradually increased and after twenty or more of her vigorous slaps I was starting to writhe on her lap. Very soon we were conducting an elaborate dance as I tried to move my bottom away from her relentless hand. But it unerringly found its mark and at every slap I felt a sting that was both delicious and excruciating. My behind took on a fiery warmth that must, it seemed, eventually aflame. And still she did not stop. I suddenly started to feel sorry for her anonymous son. If he got this no wonder he left home. Eventually I started to cry. The pain was becoming too much but I did not want her to stop. I needed it, wanted it, and wanted these tears which were now beginning to shed. And still she continued, her hand exploring ever inch of my naked flesh from waist to thigh, and only gradually did the tempo slow. When it did I had a reprise of the start of my spanking with hard individual whacks of her hand to alternate cheeks. Each exquisite sting announced that the proceedings were coming to a close. If I checked the time I reckon I had been over my landlady’s lap for ten wonderful minutes. Eventually she stopped and gentle massaging of my burning backside accompanied my dying tears. I reckon I lay over her lap for a further five minutes and all she said was that I had a lovely red bottom, so like her son’s, and she could poach an egg on it if so inclined. When I got up, at her bidding, she pulled up my underpants and jeans and fastened the necessary buttons. It was as if she was saying that when I spank I do it all. I bare and I cover. I felt fifteen again.

We never repeated the experience, much as I would have liked to. When I looked at my behind it my bedroom mirror I saw the work of an expert. I was beetroot red from waist to thigh. But we never did repeat it and we only spoke of it once. It was when I was leaving, about three weeks later, to return to England. She told me her son had died, she didn’t say how but thinking about it I reckon it was on that day that America will never forget. And in a funny sort of way spanking me brought back his memory. My boy used to get spanked for doing that, even when he was your age. It was then I told her about Mrs Wilmer and our theatre experiences and her canes and straps. And how I had never forgotten her. She said she was sure I would meet her again. And if she ever took her strap to me I was to let her know. And thinking about the forthcoming Friday I feel pretty certain that my Boston landlady will shortly be getting a letter. A very descriptive letter.

To be continued